we secretly went out...

we went to sm Manila last thursday..
the original plan is to go to trinoma..
but instead..
we went to sm M..
LOL,,
boy hunting is soo good..
im so full..
i mean my eyes were so busog..
i love mapua boys..
hrhr..
heres the photos..

i hate marian..

I'm so fucked up with Marian ...
shit*..
nakakasuka kana..
nag fifiling ka nmn..
wala kng k umiyak..
kaw din nmn ah..
nakaka inis at nakaka offend thin mga sagot mo..
bastos k din nmn ah.
natatandaan mo ba ung mga sagot mo pag ini isue kayo nya ni dingdong?
di ka nga ng ssmile..
pero..yuck..
ang mga answers mo...
"tanongin nyo na lng si Dong"
ewwness..
cheap mo teh..
your so annoying..
and so iritating..

kawawa nmn c karyle..
feeling tuloy nila xa p masama..
ewwness ka//

nakaka saw muka mo..
sa lahat ng corner ng mata ko nag aapear ka..
fuck ka..
malande...

wala n bng artista ang 7 kaya si marian n lng plage??
anku mga aspiring artist..
wala n kayong pag asa..
si marian n lng lahat ehh..
haha..
kadir n tuloy ang siete dahil sa kanya..
napaka arte..
ng pipilay pilayan p..
malumpo ka n sana..
joke,..
hmmp..
makunsenxa nmn akyo ni dong..
umamin na kung mnay aaminin..
para nmn sa mga taong nasasaktan nyo..

poor K..
i symphatize you sweety..
your smile mean alot to us..

gossip girl lines(my fave line..)

from GG episode 13 "oh brother, where Bart thou"

its so melodramatic...
i love it sooo much..

it goes like this...

B- chuck!! stop!! don't go.. why do you have to leave?? let me come with you...

C- i appreciate your concern

B- no you don't! you don't appreciate anything today.. but i don't care whatever your going through.. i wanna be there for you...

C-we talk about this, you are not my girl friend..

B-BUT AM ME.. AND YOU ARE YOU.. YOUR CHUCK I'M BLAIR BLAIR AND CHUCK..

the worst thing you'd ever done... the hardest thought you ever had.. i will stand by you through anything..
C- but why would you do that??

B-because.... I LOVE YOU
C- that's too bad..


awwwwww....
though it's too painful i still love the lines...
Blair give up her pride for Chukie...
though Chuckie refuse to love her back..
his eyes shows that he also do love Blair..
but he's just scared to love her back since all he always loses those people he love...

tell me what to do...

am i supposed to kill my self now???
i can't handle it anymore...
there's a pain in me that i can't even describe..
all the loneliness and heart ache..
fear and sudden pain..
mourning and barrels of tears...
its all over me..
it made me weak..
very weak..


my heart is broken into pieces...
like a glass falls from a 50 ft floor..
exaggerated as it is but truly i feel that way...
i wanted to cry while I'm writing this, but i don't want my keyboard to be wet..
Ive learned that my secret love/crush/confidant/husband to be had been courting a pretty faced girl in the school..
that hurts me a lot.,
though i don't have the right to feel like this..
its just so painful...
i feel like i wanted to die...
at least when i die he would recognize my existence....
i will make a letter and addressed to him..
tell my suffering just for him to noticed me..
tell him how and what i really feel...
am i supposed to eat Ra cumin??
or drink Formaldehyde??
should i walked in dark alley and wait for some pervert to kill me??
just for him to know my name..
for him to know that someone is living him dutifully and willing to do anything for him...

so cheesy but damn true...

then, my great grand mother died...
that felt so terrible for me..
since i will not be able to attend the funeral..
i still have many stuff to do and our prelim will be next week..
too bad..
i feel guilty...
my lula was so good to me and my sis..
she was so caring..
a typical lola..
i know you will forgive me for not attending your funeral...
i have my proper reason..
I LOVE YOU LULA...
You will always stay's in my heart...



is it crying that i'm gonna do???
or im just gonna shut my mouth up??
or just kill my self..(if i can't take it anymore..)
or just talk and be nice to my jeff and tell him what i really feel.
or kick him in his balls and say "you dick head I'd been so into you this past few months... can you be just mine..and..please don't talk.."" let me do the talking,, im expert to that..."
write him a letter and confess my love to him??


TELL ME..
TELL ME..
TELL me..